Ah, the irony that today’s reading in Humble Roots covers the intersection between Natural Resources (Chapter 8) and Desires (Chapter 9) and humility (the theme of the book and of this week).
I find the two are clashing for me.
My natural resource of time is simply not enough to meet my desire to handle these chapters well and write a post worthy of the topics. So, as I have been dealing with my to-do list this morning and seeing the time I have left to write this shrink, the back of my mind has been wondering how humility fits into this tension I feel.
If I keep writing to you, it means that I will be late to a weekly lunch for visiting scholars. Already this morning I had to run to the store in the pouring rain (very rare in this neck of the woods) to buy Cracker Jacks. After lunch I teach a culture class and we are finishing the baseball unit, complete with singing Take Me Out to the Ball Game. The line about Cracker Jacks makes so much more sense if you actually see them.
Buying snacks last minute is not how I roll. All week I have meant to buy them. I knew this day was coming. I knew this part of the lesson was coming. I knew how excited my students are about the learning a song—it still amazes me that some of the brightest minds from China display visible childlike joy at the mention of learning a song.
But the natural resource I am still learning to steward eludes me.
Hannah said, “We are blind to our own privilege.” It’s true. I am. Well, maybe not blind, I know how incredibly privileged I am that my days are full with meeting with people who love Velvet Ashes, working with Velvet Ashes, and other ways that God uses me in this world. Overall, I love my life.
So, I am not blind. But I may have cataracts. There are moments—like these—where I am typing like a madwoman, glancing at the clock, and aware of the stress in my jaw.
What does humility look like when what I have to offer is paltry compared to my desire and the difference I want to make?
“It is precisely through the process of wanting certain things that we also learn to trust God to fulfill those desires or to trust Him to change them. It is precisely through the process of learning to plan that we learn to depend on a God who makes our plans happen.”
You know I love this book club. That it is a priority to write posts that honor your time and our discussions. But my time is not enough this week to balance my desire for this post.
But God is faithful. He will use these crumbs to get the conversation started in the comments. I look forward to what stood out to you, what stirred in you, and how these two chapters met you in YOUR complexly rich life as well.
See you in the comments,
with love, Amy
Reading plan for Humble Roots and Scouting the Divine:
May 8—Chapters 8 and 9 in HR
May 15—Part 2 (The Harvest) in SD
May 22—Chapters 10 and 11 in HR
May 29—We made it! Two books read in tandem we will review and have a Get to Know