In Lamenting, Surrender
God, please listen as a Father listens to his daughter. Don’t leave me feeling yet again utterly alone and unheard. I have committed my life to...
Category: Grief/Loss
Learning to Be Kind to Myself
My heart ached as I said goodbye to my family, and they shut the door behind them. I would be home alone that night, missing yet another gathering. While...
In Everything
“In everything, Lord?” I prayed. “Really… everything is a lot right now.” The Lord already knew all the things that made up my circumstances in that...
Much of Praying is Grieving
I watched my daughters through the lens of my camera as they stared at the deep hole where their friend’s body had just been lowered. A young boy from...
A Liturgy for Seasons of Lament
My soul is downcast O Lord And the weight of lament Is heavy in my bones I...
Digging Up in Doubt
Doubt. It sure has been chasing me down lately. So much so, I’ve been struggling to breathe between the despondent wails I’ve cried out to my Creator. In an...
Acorns and Oaks
It all feels a little surreal. Last week I was in Uganda with my little family, waiting in uncertainty regarding our two adoptions. It’s a familiar...
Goodbye, Dear One
“I suggest you prepare yourself for losing this baby,” the gynecologist warned gently. “I can’t find any heart movement.” Alarmed, I tried to comprehend this sudden...
When Answers Don’t Come
I remember the silence in the ultrasound room. It was unnerving, and I knew something was wrong. The words that soon followed confirmed my suspicions: "I cannot find a...
Peace in the Passing
We came to our country of service with a 13-month-old in tow. After the first few months of unmet expectations of jumping into ministry with my husband, I declared...
