When I (Danielle Wheeler) asked my daughter if she’d like to write a post for children at Velvet Ashes, her eyes lit up. I knew it would be an easy “yes” for my young aspiring author with a passion for cultures. What I didn’t know was the emotions that it would bring out in both of us as she worked on this. I’m proud to welcome her here today, her eleventh birthday…
Have you ever asked God the question “why?” I know I asked him that question many times when I was in China. China was a place my family and I loved. God blessed us in China, and He gave us many gifts. We lived in a tall building with friends on the same floor, and we rode scooters in the park. We had Chinese friends and went to Chinese restaurants. Those were some gifts that God gave us.
Sometimes though I would feel embarrassed when Chinese people would stare at me and when I was the only non-Chinese person in my class. I remember sometimes when I would feel so upset I would cry in my bed and ask God the question, “why?”
But God brought out good things from the bad things. Out of my Chinese school He gave me a Chinese friend. Even though she didn’t speak English and most of the time I didn’t understand her, we still became good friends. We would give each other little gifts every week at school. Chinese school was still hard, but God gave me the gift of a good friend.
One of the biggest times when I asked God the question “why?” was when we left China. I was mad at Him and asked why would He take me away from a place I loved and where I was happy. I remember when my friends and I cried all our tears out when we had to leave.
When we came to Missouri things were different. The schools were easier, but it was still hard being the new kid. When people would ask me, “Where are you from?” I would say, “China,” and they would make a weird face at me.
I love Missouri because it’s a place God wanted me to be, and He knew I was going to be happy here. I love my school, my friends, my neighborhood, my big back yard, and my home. I wouldn’t have had all those things without coming to Missouri. God gave me another home and another place to spread God’s word.
I am happy to be back in America, but sometimes I still miss China. Sometimes no matter where you live, you still miss the places you’ve been. And God knows that maybe, just maybe… I’ll be able to tell China, “I’m coming back.”
God knew I was going to ask the question “why?” And I still don’t know the answer. But I do trust Him and I know He is always with me. My life is not about me, it’s about going the way Jesus wants me to go. My life is about sharing God’s word. Good things or hard things, challenges or gifts, Jesus still has a plan for me, all I have to do is trust Him.
When is a time that you’ve asked God the question “why”? What has helped you during those times? When have you seen God’s plan in your life? What are some gifts you have seen in hard times?