A Liturgy for Staying

A Liturgy for Staying

El Roi, God who sees me-

The foreigner

The wanderer

The sojourner-

Thank you that you see and ordain

All my journeys

My days 

And my steps

Both coming and going

Father

I confess that at the beginning of this Journey abroad I thought

The going would be the highest price

You could ask of me

But here, now

I am finding that

The staying may cost even more

Oh Lord

Would you help me to count the cost

And find you ever worth it

Sometimes my feet

And my heart

Grow restless and I wonder

If perhaps it’s time

To fold up my tent

And go

When you are actually inviting me

To stay

To persevere 

To trust that your plans for me here

Are not finished yet

Please calm my wandering heart

O Holy Spirit

O Prince of Peace

Gentle Savior, in these moments

When it seems it would be easier

To pack my bags

Help me instead to

Fall to my knees

And wait for you to speak

For you haven’t called me to

“Easy”

But to

“Faithful”

When it all feels like 

Too much

And life here has become more 

Surviving than thriving 

Merciful Jesus, help me

Rediscover the abundant life

You offer

That isn’t dependent on

My location 

But rather on 

My posture 

And in your kindness, Lord

Open my eyes to

Once again see

The beauty of this place

And this life

That I found not so long ago

When I surrendered to your call to

Go

And open my heart to

Once again embrace

The beauty of obedience

And this life 

That I’ll find in the days to come

As I surrender to your call to

Stay

Find more encouragement at Liturgies for a Life Abroad.

7 Comments

  1. Stephanie Dias June 8, 2021

    THIS!!! You took the words right out of my heart! There are more than a baggage allowance of reasons for us to pack up and leave the field. No one would blame us. Everyone would welcome us back to our passport country. But God hasn’t given us the green light yet. Thank you for the reminder that He has called us to be faithful and obedient, regardless of ministry results and homesickness. We press on because He is worthy!!

    1. Heather Fallis June 8, 2021

      Yes, He is worthy! Thank you for reading and commenting!

  2. Nicola Maxwell June 8, 2021

    Exactly the words I needed at this time! Thank you for writing down what has been on my heart and in my head for weeks.

    1. Heather Fallis June 9, 2021

      I’m so thankful this resonated with you. May the Father bless you as you stay faithful to the place and people He’s called you to.

  3. RL June 9, 2021

    Thanks for writing this! Yes… I’m feeling the pain of being asked to stay. Up until recently, all I wanted was to stay. My heart would have broken to leave.
    But, at the moment , life has grown terribly hard for lots of reasons. Everyday feels like a sacrifice, and all I can dream of is being somewhere cool, and more comfortable, a place where I have friends who get me, and systems that (might) be easier to navigate. Lots has transitioned in the last few months, and now, I wonder if part of this IS the process of starting to let go because maybe we’re being called to new things. I wonder if that’s why some of the grace to stay has seemingly lifted! And yet… I know that in this particular year, this particular month, this day… I am called to be here, and there is enough grace for me here…

    1. Heather Fallis June 9, 2021

      Sometimes it is truly saying “yes” one day at a time. I hope this liturgy continues to encourage you in this season, whether you end up staying long-term or just for a little while longer. Thank you for your faithfulness, even when it’s hard! Blessings!

  4. Heather Fallis June 9, 2021

    Sometimes it is truly saying “yes” one day at a time. I hope this liturgy continues to encourage you in this season, whether you end up staying long-term or just for a little while longer. Thank you for your faithfulness, even when it’s hard! Blessings!

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