I started blogging several years before heading overseas, back when it was a way to share stories with close friends and family. I wasn’t building a platform or working toward a book project, but stringing words together gave voice and clarity to what I saw and experienced around me.
I love writing. Stacks of journals on my shelves give testament to how thoughts flow as I talk to God, working out whatever angsty emotions are taking root in my heart and marking the moments that matter to me. Some of those words make their way into newsletters or blog posts or onto social media.
But sometimes I don’t love that others write too.
I get jealous over the number of comments or social media shares they receive. I compare and contrast word choices and find I am lacking. Her platform is so much more popular! Her words are beautiful and deep. Are mine?
A few years ago, I wrote to a mentor with an awkward question. Have you ever compared yourself to other writers? I was afraid her answer would be, “What? Of course not. Surely you aren’t struggling with that?”
Instead, she graciously responded, “I get it.” And then she included this statement that has stuck with me and comes to mind any time I put pen to paper: “There’s enough to go around.”
Enough love. Enough room in the Kingdom. Enough space for that sister’s words and mine.
A scarcity mindset tells me to hold on with fists clenched tight. This is my “thing”, the place where I want to receive praise.
It spills over into the way I want to spend my time, my money. Interactions become interruptions rather than opportunities. I hoard because I don’t want to run out.
But an abundance mindset means there’s room to accept critique and keep growing and learning, while celebrating the beauty of others and the art that overflows from their hearts. There’s space for a ministry idea that feels too close to mine. The Kingdom is expansive enough for moments of conversation along the way to the market, lingering with someone to listen while coffee grows cold.
When I remember that there’s enough, I don’t drive a stake into the ground that says, “This is mine.” We’re going to keep coming back to the community described at the end of Acts 4 this week, but they so beautifully displayed this heart of abundance. In the Passion Translation, verse 32 of chapter 4 says that “selfishness was not part of their community.”
We may not sell all our belongings and pool the resources to care for one another in the literal sense, but can we release our rights and open our hands in surrender to the One who is enough? Can we write the words, design the website, mother our children, without the heavy burden of comparison?
May we remember that there’s enough room in the Kingdom for our unique gifts and talents. There’s enough joy that her rejoicing doesn’t take away mine. There are enough resources that I can share generously.
Whether it is my words, my time or my possessions, really they aren’t mine to keep. I stand before the King of Kings with heart open to give freely and receive abundantly whatever it is He has for me.
Is there a part of your life, work or ministry that feels about to run out? What would it be like to see that situation with a heart of abundance?